29.5.2012

goodbye, may



Lately, I've been in Jyväskylä and enjoying the light nights.  The summer is coming on strong.

26.5.2012

hellepäiviä



Voi, kun elämä on aivan ihanaa tällä hetkellä!  Vaikka on toinen pääsykoe tiistaina, yksi on jo ohi ja sitten tämän viimeisen jälkeen, ei ole enää huolia eikä stressiä.  Sen takia olen ollut niin iloinen näissä hellepäivissä.  On ollut aivan mahtava ilma ja olen ollut auringossa paljon.  Olen paljon miettinyt kesäsuunnitelmia viime aikoina ja en vielä ole varma siitä mitä teen tänä kesänä.  Helsinki on nyt niin kaunis etten halua ikinä lähteä täältä pois.  Muistan nyt niin värikkäästi miksi rakastan Suomea.

Kävin eilen Marimekon kesänäytöksessä Espalla.  Näytös oli aivan mahtava!  Balettia, musiikkia, ja ihania vaatteita.  Olen niin Marimekko fani, ja tulen aina olemaan!

I don't think life could get much better right now.  Even though I have another exam on Tuesday, there is already one over and then after this last one, there won't be any other worries or stress.  And this is why I am so happy during these hot, hot days.  We have had incredible weather here in Helsinki and I've been in the sun as much as possible.  I've been thinking a lot lately about summer plans and I'm still not entirely sure what I am doing this summer.  Helsinki is just so beautiful right now that I can't even fathom leaving here.  Finland, I remember so vividly why I love you so.

Yesterday I went to Marimekko's summer fashion show on Esplanadi and it was absolutely incredible!  Ballet, music, and wonderful clothes.  I am such a Marimekko fan and will always be!

21.5.2012

huomenna, huomenna



Days are coming and going so quickly, but the spring light stays around for a while.  I like that.  I'm a busy bee right now, studying as much as I can.  I do take photo breaks though, I just can't help it.  My first exam is this Wednesday in Jyväskylä, so I won't be here again until after then.  Wish me luck!

18.5.2012

sateinen päivä



First, I want to say how lovely it was to read your comments from my last post, I need to remember more often how we are all only humans who have a lot of the same thoughts, feelings, and hopes.  Yesterday in Helsinki was a rainy day, but I like the rain every now and then.  Thursday didn't have too much in store for me, but I did go to one friend's of mine for a birthday party where I had heavenly cake.  The company was wonderful, too.  Not bad.  I have entrance exams coming up, so I'm trying to study like crazy.  It would be nice to go to a park for a picnic this weekend, or maybe to a flea market, but I have to stay in and study.  And the studying will be worth it.

If it's possible, get some sun in this weekend!

Ensin haluan sanoa miten ihanaa oli lukea teidän kommentteja viimeisestä postauksestani, pitää aina muistaa että olemme kaikki vain ihmisiä joilla on paljon samanlaisia ajatuksia, tunteita, ja toivomuksia.  Helatorstai Helsingissä oli sateinen päivä, mutta tykkään sateestä aina silloin tällöin.  Ei ollut paljon tekemistä, siis kävin ystäväni luona jossa oli synttärijuhlat.  Söin taivaallista kakkua ja muita herkkupaloja, seura olikin ihana.  Ei hassumpaa.  Minulla on pääsykokeet tulossa, luen kokeisiin siis ihan hirveästi tällä hetkellä.  Tekisi mieli mennä tänä viikonloppuna jonnekin puistoon ehkä piknikille tai kirppikselle, mutta pitää jäädä asuntoon opiskelemaan.  Ja kyllä onhan se opiskeleminen sen arvoista.

Jos on mahdollista, ottakaa kaikki vähän aurinkoa tänä viikonloppuna!

7.5.2012

the things i'm afraid to say

If you hang out in the blog world as much as I do, you've probably seen this post and this article.  I'm usually not much for blogging or post trends, but I have to admit:  I'm a bit tired of the pretty.  And, on the same note, I'm also guilty of the pretty.

Lately, it seems as if there has been a surge of perfect in the blogging community.  Bloggers are also photographers and stylists.  A photo of a beautiful tablescape isn't too hard to find if you look in the right place, nor is a photo of flowers in the garden.  I hope this isn't taken the wrong way, as there is nothing wrong with photos like these, it's just that I think we revel too much in that tiny, tiny fraction of our lives.  Yes, that fraction is indeed beautiful, but sometimes I ask myself:  where is the substance?  I think it gets shoved under the rug a lot more than we're willing to admit.  I have told myself many times that I don't share all of my life on my blog because the rest of it is personal, and the Internet isn't a place for that.  However, beneath all of that is also the fact that I don't share the "rest" of my life on this blog because I don't consider it as perfect or pretty.  And then, if I were to show those nitty-gritty parts of my life, there is fear.  Would you come here to read this blog again?  Would you accept me?  Would you like what I said or what photos I took?

Sometimes I come to this blog just to escape, and while that is okay at times, it also probably gives an inaccurate picture of my life.  So, before I think about hitting the "delete" button, I'd also like to tell you some things I'm afraid to say.  I'd like to show you some substance and more than just a fraction.

+  I absolutely hate waking up in the morning.  I always have and probably always will.  If I can help it, I will sleep in.

+  I procrastinate... always.  I'm afraid that if I don't do what I'm procrastinating right, then it won't turn out well.  I'm also a perfectionist.  If it can't be perfect, then I don't want it.  My dad calls me an ostrich, meaning I bury my head in the sand and pretend the problem is not there at all if I cannot find a way to fix it.

+  Sometimes I feel really, really left out.  Sometimes, I just want an invite.  I wonder what's wrong with me that people don't call more often.

+  I love (and perhaps even love isn't an adequate word) cheesy reality television shows.  The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills is my favorite.

+  I worry about my future.  I worry about what I'm doing next year and next summer, even next week.  I worry I will never find someone to share my life with.  Will I have a husband?  Will I have children?

+  Every night before I go to bed, I have to make sure everything is clean.  I can't go to bed with a room messy.

+  When I go on social networking sites, I often end up angry, jealous, or sad.  Or a mixture of the three.  Everyones' lives always seem better than my own.

+  I judge people for silly things like spelling errors.  I know.

+  I don't like and can't handle confrontation.  I swallow my anger and words a lot.  It's hard for me to communicate sometimes.

+  I want to study Finnish next year, but every day, I doubt I'm good enough.  I feel pressure, because everyone thinks I am good.  Yet I still have doubt.  What if I don't get in?

+  I have entrance exams for university coming up and I still am not prepared enough for them.  Again, procrastination because of my fear.

+  I am incredibly stubborn.  Admitting I'm wrong is difficult for me.  Being right makes me feel better about myself.  I compensate with that when I'm feeling self-conscious, which is often.

+  When I am in Finland, I dream about the United States.  When I'm in the United States, I dream about Finland until I cry.  I sometimes wonder whether I should just go home.

+   I want to please everyone.  I'm not as strong in my convictions as I should be because I am afraid of how someone would react if I were to disagree with them, especially in areas like politics and religion.  I try to be open about what I believe, but sometimes I try to hide my beliefs as well.

+  I'm afraid this post will get no comments or views.  I'm afraid no one will relate to me.

4.5.2012

tuli vappu, tuli toukokuu




Ja nyt tässä ollaan.  En oikein voi uskoa, että kesä tulee pian.  Minun vappuni oli niin ihana että ajattelen sitä yhä, vaikka on ollut noin neljä päivää ohi.  Oltiin Kaivarissa, Vanha kirkkopuistossa, ja Espalla.  Piknik sitä, piknik tätä.  Patonkeja ja kuohuviiniä.  Lisää, kiitos.  Ääniä kaikkialla, auringon lämpöä.  Meri kimalsi.  Lisää, kiitos.

And now here we are.  I can hardly believe that summer is coming soon.  My vappu was so lovely that I think about it often, even now four days later.  We were in Kaivopuisto, this park, and in Esplanadi.  Picnic this, picnic that.  Baguettes and sparkling wine.  More, please.  Sounds all around and the sun's warmth.  The sea sparkled.  More, please.

Liking this and this.